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| Cooper at the 2013 Academy Awards |
He explained to British GQ magazine: "Death became very real. And very tangible. Because my father - someone who had been in my life for 36 years is just f***ing gone.
"I watched him dying and I was there by his bed watching him, breathing with him, and then I saw his last breath and he was gone. I experienced the whole thing. And that was a watershed moment that I was privileged to experience. And it changed everything. Nothing has ever been the same since."
Since his father's death, the 38-year-old actor has admitted he doesn't "sweat s***" like winning awards for his acting work and believes it's probably for the best that he didn't win an Oscar.
He said: "You know William Blake's 'Songs Of Innocence?' Well, right there, in that moment, the innocence was gone. Done. Never to return. The beauty is that I just don't sweat s**t anymore.
"I don't want to win an Oscar. It would change nothing. Nothing. The things in my life that aren't fulfilled would not be fulfilled. Career-wise, right now, it's better that I don't win one. I don't want to win. I don't."
